I’m not like you
I can’t switch my feelings off
And they threaten to swallow me whole and spit me out
Consumed by a blackness I can’t describe
A pain burning in the pit of my stomach
I’ve fallen into this hole so many times before
I really thought I’d learned to avoid it
Seems not
Seems I’m back there, fallen, alone, and so desperately sad
The need to give up screaming my name
Just let go
Be done
The pull of nothing ever increasing
Excruciatingly impatient
Give up, give up
Don’t feel any more, ever again
Give up
God I want to
How the fuck did I get back here
How did I let it happen?
And why the fuck don’t these fucking drugs help??
Tears stream down my face and my chest closes
My temples squeezed be the pain that I feel
The anguish streams down my face hidden in my tears
Give up, just give up
Let it go, it’s not worth it
You’re a no one
A nothing